Friday, September 16, 2005
Waking up/Awakening

Waking up.....


My medication dosage is now doubled and it is kicking my ass. I'm useless. Completely. Totally. Useless.

My house is destroyed. I didn't wake up until 9:30 this morning, and I'm guessing my girls were up around 8:00. My favorite black nail polish that I got on sale for twenty-three cents when they stopped making it is dumped all over my bedroom floor, dried in drippy looking patches. Thank God it's Friday so I can recover from this. My non-sexual lifemate/bff J may be making an appearance, and I'd hate for her to be welcomed by a house that has little shreds of ripped up paper all over the floor. I'd LOVE to be able to clean, but I am so tired that it hurts my whole body to get up. It seems to take more muscles than I have to get my kids dressed and fed. Based on the first experience with these meds, I know the worst of the sleepiness is the first week. Lets hope that goes by fast.


Awakening....


When I went to the 'med doctor', she asked me if I've been feeling better, blah, blah. I usually don't notice things like that, as my mind only works in the immediate past (ie. yesterday), and it is hard for me to remember how I felt last week, never mind months ago. She read through my intake report, and all of the reports she made when I met with her. She then asked me a series of questions and after I answered she read to me how I had answered at intake.

MY GOD!

I have turned around completely. Hopelessness? Gone. Uncontrollable rage? Gone. Frustration about things that are beyond my control? Gone. Anxiety? Much, much less.

I have had conversations with people I don't know, including the police that took my statement in that incident, without wanting to run away. I've talked to strangers on the phone with out my heart pumping in "running up a steep hill" mode. I sit next to people on the couches in the waiting room at therapy instead of standing as far away from anyone as I can!

My husband, who sometimes knows me better than I know myself, says my mood is stable. There is consistency. I am the same person when he comes home at night as I was when he left after lunch. That's a new thing. I like it.






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Blogger Heidi had this to say:

I'm sorry to hear about the lethargy. Hope it goes away quickly for ya!

I am so psyched to hear you have experienced success with your treatment! YAY! It must feel so great to look back on how far you have come. You deserve to feel proud of yourself. I know I am proud of you! Keep up the hard work, and enjoy your visit with J!

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